Silencing my inner cynic!

7 Mar

I signed up to this program with very low expectations of myself and it! Having taken 1 years to go from  150kg to 119kg and then spending the next 4 years yo-yoing between 115-123, I despaired of finding a way to get out of the cycle. I knew someone at my gym had lost mega-kilos on the 12wbt, but really didn’t expect it would work for me. But I decided it was do or die time, I would put my all into the12wbt, and if (inner voice saying when) it didn’t work, I told myself I would be resigned to being this size forever. After all I am very fit (exercising 6 days a week) and healthy, I must just have to face up to being fat and healthy!

Ever since the first day, reading others’ stories about the last round, looking at the before and after photos, my inner cynic has been nay-saying: its ridiculous, theres no way thatyou could lose those kind of numbers. I prepared to fail and had my excuses ready.Well this week is mini-milestone Week 4, and while I haven’t lost the mega-kilos some others have, I am very pleased to say that I have smashed a few goals:

My aim for the first 4 weeks was to lose 3kg – I lost that in pre-season and have now lost another 5

I also wanted to be running 2kms non-stop – I was doing that in week 1!

I wanted to improve my time for my 6km walk-instead I have extended my walk and now do an 8km hilly circuit twice a week. 

Checking my 6 month goal I put that I wanted to be at 110kg – well today I weighed in at 112.1kg, so now I’ve decided my 6 month goal is to be below 100, for the first time in 20 years.
I’m not sure what it is that’s working, I suspect it’s a combination of the support on forums and Facebook, and also the fact that I am following the program to the letter: No blow-outs, no second servings, portions as per the recipes. I also have discovered things about how my body works regarding weight loss that I didn’t know before, meant that I feel that I am in control of the process and that it is not just a crap shoot like it was before.
Thanks to Michelle and her team for the program- my inner cynic is well and truly silenced. Sometimes she tries to come out to play if I try and compare my losses to others, but mostly she stays in her box and I think I’ve got the key for once!

Eat Food. Not Too Much. Mostly Plants. Rules for the health gain journey.

4 Mar

I’ve recently bought a copy of Food Rules by Michael Pollan, author of The Omnivore’s Dilemma. It’s a collection of straightforward steps which expand on his basic seven word principle: Eat Food. Not Too Much. Mostly Plants. When you first look at that it seems almost too simple for words, but in Food Rules he expands on each one to come up with some rules which I think are really relevant to the 12wbt  (or any weight-loss and health-gain journey). I though I’d share a few which really jumped out at me:

EAT FOOD:

Rule 2: “Don’t eat anything your grandmother wouldn’t recognise as food.”

Next time you’re doing your grocery shop have a look at how much is on our shelves and in our frozen and dairy section that your grandmother or great-grandmother would be scratching her head at – yoghurt and cheese in tubes, soup in powder form, chicken in a tin to mention only a few.

Rule 5: – Avoid foods that have some form of sugar ( or sweetener) listed among the top three ingredients.

Pollan includes a long list of the sugars that slip by under other names, and as he says “sugar is sugar. And organic sugar is still sugar” And he includes artificial sweeteners in that.

Rule 6: Avoid food products that have more than 5 ingredients.

The more ingredients a packaged food has, the more highly processed it will be. (Note he doesn’t include a recipe that you make yourself)

Rule 13. Eat only foods that will eventually rot.

“Real food is alive and will eventually go off. The more processed a food is, the longer it’s shelf life, and the less nutrition it will hav ebecause a lot of what is nutritious is also what causes food to go off.

Rule 19. If it came from a plant, eat it. If it was made in a plant, don’t

Rule 20. It’s not food if it arrives through the window of your car

NOT TOO MUCH

Rule 46. Stop eating before you’re full

Pollan uses the French expressions “J’ai faim” (I have hunger) when you are hungry and “Je n’ai plus faim” (I have no more hunger) to emphasise the point that there is a difference between eating to satisfy hunger and eating until you are full. All ancient cultures have an expression that suggests eating only until you are 60-80% full. I have so often been guilty of this in the past. (often because of Rule 53 below!)

Rule 53. Serve a proper portion and don’t go back for seconds

This is the one that I struggle most with, and has been the biggest change in my behaviour. We have always eaten good ‘clean’ food, but just too much of it. I have always cooked meals with the capacity for everyone to have seconds and it has taken a lot of self-discipline to create a meal that will only serve the number of people sitting down for dinner. For some reason it makes me feel like an inadequate wife,mother or hostess if I cannot offer seconds. And of course if there are leftovers who’s the person most likely to eat them (in the past) yes that’s right – me. So now while I do still buy a bigger portion of, say fish, for my husband than for me, I never buy any more than will just serve us. It means that our grocery bills have actually gone down on the 12wbt!

Rule 60. Treat treats as treats.

As Pollan says, in the past things like fried chicken and pastries and icecream were expensive and took so much time to prepare, that they were special occasion foods only, made when company was coming or perhaps as a once a week thing when there was the time.But because we have outsourced so much of our food preparation, what was Special Occasion has now become everyday. One way we can overcome this he says is by returning to preparing them ourselves so it will go back to being an occasional treat, or following the S policy “No Sweets Snacks or Seconds except on days that begin with S”.

MOSTLY PLANTS

Rule 22. Eat mostly plants, especially leaves.

By eating a diet that is primarily plant based you’ll automatically be eating less calories, as they are less energy dense.

Rule 23. Treat meat as a flavouring or special occasion food.

Apparently us ‘flexitarians’ who eat meat only a cuople of times a week are just as healthy as vegetarians!

Rule 36. Don’t eat breakfast cereals that change the colour of milk.

Rule 39. Eat all the junk food you like, as long as you cook it yourself

Enjoy these treats as often as you’re prepared to prepare them – with our busy lifestyles, chances are that won’t be every day!

RULE 64: BREAK THE RULES ONCE IN A WHILE.

Bear in mind the addage ” All things in moderation” but also what Oscar Wilde added: “Including moderation itself!!”

Feeding the Munchies: Green Goddess Dip

2 Mar

3 weeks into the challenge and I am pleased to have lost almost 4 kgs (8 if you count preseason). Others have lost much more, but I am happy to keep on a slow and steady course. Part of my success I think has been that I have stuck quite zealously to my 1200 calories and exercise regime. The thing that always tempts me though is snacking: I am a snacker, I can go all day eating really well and then as soon as I get home all I want to do is nibble. I have learnt to save my morning and afternoon snack allowance and have something small and nibble-able (is that even a word?) as I prepare dinner. This recipe is one of my standbys so I jumped at the chance to share the recipe as my entry into this week’s Weekly Surprise competition – to create a snack under 150 calories.

The Green Goddess Dip is traditionally a mayonnaise and sour cream based dip loaded with calories. This version was inspired by a New York Times recipe and uses only yoghurt and low-fat feta. You can use any herbs you have in the garden.

Barbara’s Green Goddess Dip (serves 3)

This is a light refreshing dip which is really healthy. It also makes a great sauce for fish or chicken. I keep a container in the fridge and I also make up a container of Mountain Bread crisps (see below) so that I have the makings of a healthy snack when the munchies strike.

Dip only: 62 calories; Dip with Veges: 110; Dip with Mountain Bread Crisps: 132 calories

2 cups tightly packed mixed fresh herbs ( I use coriander, basil, chives, parsley and a little mint) 1 cup Jalna fat-free yoghurt 1 garlic clove (crushed) 20gms low-fat Feta cheese 1 chopped spring onion

Method: Combine all ingredients in a food processor and pulse until smooth and green. Season to taste. Refrigerate for at least an hour as the dip thickens on standing.

Serve with sliced cucumber, celery, zucchini and/ or wedges of tomatoes or else with pita crisps made from 1 piece of mountain bread cut into triangles and baked until brown and crisp.

12wbt Blogging Challenge 2. It’s about more than sacrifices

26 Feb

This week’s 12 WBT blogging challenge is to look at what are you actually TAKING up? What are you giving yourself? Are you learning something new? Taking up a new sport? Giving yourself a social life?

This is a great question because as Leanne says in her own response, too often when we undertake this kind of lifestyle change, we focus on the things we have to give up: in my case mostly the food and the comfort zone.

I touched on these sorts of rewards in my post about my new goals for the challenge and have this week made a concrete step towards one of the big ones: learning to ride a bike.

My father tried to teach me to ride a bike when I was 5, but one day while crossing the road with him I fell off, scraped my knee, got a huge fright and wouldn;t get back on again. Then when I was 17, newly immigrated to Australia and isolated in the suburbs, he tried again. The humiliation of having my father run along behind me on a suburban street was just too much for a teenager to bear. Over the years I’ve watched my children sail off, envious and sad that I couldn’t join them and their Dad on family bike rides. As I put on more and more weight that became just one more reason not to try to learn – I was too big, I would look ridiculous. Last year while in Europe I felt an almost physical pang of envy as I watched other tourists hop on those free hire bikes in London and Rome, and imagined what it would be like to cruise around the cobbled streets.

Well this week I have finally decided that as my weight is droppping and my fitness increasing I needed to do something about it. I have found a group that offers individiual Learn-to-Ride lessons for adults and booked myself in. I am really, really scared that I will once again fail, even as I am determined that I will not. The bonus of this reward is of course that not only will I be overcoming an old fear, I will also be unleashing yet another way ton exercise and lose more weight! Bonus!

So if you’re out cycling in the eastern suburbs of Melbourne in the next few months, and you encounter a middle-aged woman with a silly grin on her face, possibly shouting Wheeeeeeeee. It’ll probably be me, and you’ll know I succeeded!

A little about me- 12wbt blogging challenge

19 Feb
  1. Tell us a little bit about yourself.  What makes you, you?
I am a university-educated, left-leaning, independent, loyal, strong-willed and bloody-(but fair) minded woman. I have very strong beliefs about sustainable living and ethical eating. I’m also a good friend, a great daughter & Mum and usually an ok wife (see my opening sentence for reasons I sometimes am not.) I start with these things because they are what makes me, me. I am also 49, a bookseller, Mum to three fabulous independent, gorgeous kids and one add-on ( my daughter’s partner who lived with us for 3 years.) In a previous life I was a university lecturer, but I have also worked as a cook and been at home with my Kids. As I wrote in a previous post, I live/ love to cook, I also love to eat which is why I am here. I also love/live to travel.
2. Why did you decide to do the 12WBT?
As I’ve also written in my first post, after great succes losing weight in the first couple of years of my journey, I had become stuck in a roller-coaster of gains and losses. Someone at my gym (Kelly Moroney) had lost a lot of weight on the program and I like the way Michelle thinks so decided I might as well give it a shot.
3. What are you hoping to achieve through the program?
My initial goals for the program were small – I wanted to lose 10kg which would take me to my lowest weight since I had given birth to my youngest child in 1990. However having already lost 4.5 kg of those 10kg in pre-season and the first week, all sorts of other possibilities have revealed themsleves. I have become more ambitious: I want to be fit enough to run 5km, thin enough to fit in a kayak, strong enough to do a chin lift (!); have enough endurance to fulfil my dream of hiking in the Grand Canyon. Who know perhaps I can even start to dream about reaching my ideal BMI this year?
4. Why have you decided to blog about the 12WBT? What will be the main focus (eg, food, exercise, a bit of everything?)
I am a writer, I love to write and a blog gives me focus. My blog will have lots of cooking, but also a lot about my philosophies on food and living sustainably.
5.How will you be exercising this round? Gym, home, outdoors or a mixture?
I have been exercising regularly for 5 years and find that what works for me is a mix. I walk most days, do at least three classes in the gym a week as well as two PT strength sessions. I have added some running on the treadmill and will also get back into swimming because I love to swim. I think it is so important to mix it up. I have found that my body starts to get into a groove of a certain exercise, and performs that exercise too easily, without burning enough cals. I believe in keeping it guessing!
6.What is your greatest strength that will help you?
I am intensely determined and competitive. I do not give up easily.
7.What are you afraid of?
Geez-everything! Being as fat as I once was? Losing my fitness (which happened at the beginning of this year after a procedure put me out of action for 6 weeks). Dying young?
8.What are you looking forward to the most over the next 12 weeks?
Something I hadn’t considered when I signed up- the virtual companionship and support of the other 12wbters. What a great bunch of people I’ve found on the Facebook groups and forums. Also finding out what new and exciting things I cado push my body to do!
9.What is your downfall? Food? Exercise? How will you overcome this?
Food-definitely. I love to bake and cook, I miss not doing it. I cannot allow myself to do it until I have achieved my goal for this round.
10.If you had to pick one word to motivate you over the next 12 weeks, what would you choose?

Can I have two? Grand Canyon!

It’s all about the goal(post)s

12 Feb

Well tomorrow the 12wbt starts and over the past few weeks I’ve been applying myself assidously to pre-season tasks. One of those was to set some goals for myself and I have found as I get fitter and start to notice clothes getting looser I am moving my goal (posts). Now I find my self thinking I might try a team sport, or go kayaking. I’ve started running and can now run 2km on the treadmill without stopping, so my 3 month goal to run a 5km fun run with my daughter seems a little tame – how about a 10km fun run? I’ve also revived a goal which is also a reward: Hiking the Grand Canyon.

Here’s the back story: in 2005 the whole family (2 teenage daughters and son and my husband) went to America on the occasion of my son finishing his VCE. We had a fabulous trip – hired a mini van and drove from LA to San Francisco then to Las Vegas and on to the Grand Canyon. I was blown away by the GC – it’s one of those places to which photos can never do justice. Yes it looks amazing in pics, but when you actually stand there in person? It is possibly the most awe-inspiring place I’ve ever been.

 There are lots of trails which lead down into the canyon and my husband, son and eldest daughter headed off to do a short one while my youngest daughter and I stayed up top. They were so enthusiastic about the experience that we decided we should all tackle a short one – 2.4kms to a viewpoint called Ooh Aah Point. Now at this point I probably weighed in the high 130s, but I had been walking every morning in preparation for the trip, and thought I could handle 2.4 kms. Down of course is NO problem – but hiking the Grand Canyon is like climbing a mountain in reverse, the easy bit is done first, and the hard part is returning. As we descended 275 metres in 1.4 kms a little voice in the back of my head was saying – “you are going to have to do this uphill on the way back – stop now”. I didn’t stop, and after spending about half an hour admiring the view and taking photos, we headed back up. Well I seriously thought I was going to die. I had been reading a book called “Death in the Grand Canyon” which told about foolish unfit people who keeled over from heart attacks while attempting the hike and I was convinced I would be one of them. At one point I was close to a panic attack at the thought. But what kept going through my head then, even though I didn’t act upon it for another year, was: “One Day I am going to get fit and I will come back here and do it properly.” 

Today I know that I could do that short hike with only a little effort, but what I really want to do- as a celebration of turning 50 and becoming fitter than I ever have been - is to go back to that incredible, spiritual place and hike all the way down to the Colorado River, camp for a couple of days and then hike back out – by myself, unaided and without feeling like I might die. So that is both the goal and the reward for my 12wbt, but it is also a commitment. I’ll be going to to the States with a girlfriend in September when I turn 50 and will be booking the hike in the next few weeks. I am putting it out here in the blogoshpere because I need to be held accountable and not back out. Watch this space!

Loving (and living) to cook: Japanese Seafood hotpot

4 Feb

One of the possible problems I can see with the 12 weeks ahead is that I love to cook. You could say I live to cook as cooking and food are also essential to my business. What I am trying to get into during pre-season though is to devise new and healthy versions of favourite recipes and play around with spices and flavourings to keep my palate happy while reducing my waistline! To that end I’ll share a few of my recipes. When I say MY recipes they are mostly my adaptations of originals, or things I’ve eaten in a restaurant and tried to replicate. Last night after a visit to the Queen Victoria Market seafood stands with my daughter on Thursday I put together a Japanese seafood hotpot with scallop dumplings that comes in at around 350 calories for a generous large bowl with two dumplings. I used marinara mix becasue the fishmonger had a particularly good quality one with large prawns and scallops as well as the usual mussels and calamari etc. He also sold the dumplings, but you can make your own using wonton wrappers from your supermarket dairy case and chopped seafood. The stock recipe is incredibly versatile and can be used just as easily for a chicken or vegetarian hotpot, you can add udon or other noodles to it, spice it up with chili, etc etc. It’s around 260 cals per serve if you divide it into 4 small bowls, about 350 for a bowl like the one below with two dumplings.

Japanese Seafood hotpot

Japanese Seafood hotpot with dumplings

(Serves 4 or 2 generously)

Aromatic Stock Base

 1.5 litres of water

3 spring onions – white base roughly chopped, green tops thinly sliced and reserved for garnish

¼ cup dried shitake mushrooms

1 brown onion peeled and roughly chopped

1 carrot roughly chopped

1 star anise

1 Tablespoon szichuan peppercorns

¼ light soy sauce

2 TBS Shaoxing or chinese rice wine

1 tsp sugar

Seafood HotPot

1 small whole white firm-fleshed fish, head-on (Barramundi or bream are ideal, don’t use a strong-flavoured fish like mackerel).

Combine all the Aromatic Stock Base  ingredients in a large pot.

For Vegetarian Hotpot, this is your base.

For Seafood Hotpot add to the stock the whole fish chopped in three (head body and tail). You can also use prawn heads and shells if you’re adding prawns to your hotpot later.

For Chicken Hotpot add either a chicken Maryland divided into two or a couple of chicken thighs (bone-in).

 Bring stock to boil and then simmer uncovered for 30 minutes. Strain through a fine sieve and discard solids. For the chicken hotpot –remove meat from bones and reserve.

 SEAFOOD HOTPOT

Return stock to a clean saucepan and bring to the boil. Reduce heat and add 300 gms of good quality marinara mix or other seafood and 8 small seafood dumplings (12 wbters watch the cal count on these or make your own with wonton wrappers and chopped seafood) and simmer covered for 5 minutes. Add  300gm of mushrooms (I used enoki and oyster) cover and simmer for a further 5 minutes; Add chopped leaves of  small bunch of baby bok choy or other Asian leafy green. Cover and simmer for further 5 minutes.

 To serve:  Divide dumplings and seafood between 4 bowls. Ladle broth and veges on top. Gsarnish with reserved spring onion tops and finely sliced chilli.

 VEGETARIAN HOTPOT

 As above but without the seafood and dumplings. You can also add other vegetables, varying simmering time in the stock according to thickness of vege.

 CHICKEN HOTPOT

 As for vegetarian hotpot, except place the shredded chicken from stock chicken in the bowl before ladling over broth.

BEEF HOTPOT

Slice 1 good-quality steak very finely (put into the freezer for half an hour beforehand to firm it – this makes slicing thinly easier). Divide slice evenly between bowls and ladle stock over the top. The hot stock will cook the meat.

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